You know I'm just down. Sue's right- got to sort it out and I did between yesterday and today. A very real realization of my tenuous mortality. I had quit my of job at the fabric store. I never ever quit any thing. I also had go withdraw my application to a better job because I knew physically I could not do it despite hVing worked there up till last march for 7 years. I took this other job for more pay- all in municipal government. Last night my husband, hearing this from me, called the old boss only to find out the selectmen made their vote. I'm kicking myself.. I could have been the assistant tax collector- but could I have lasted? I can't deal with it so I've been home the last 2 days feeling crappy both inside and out.
Sorry all - it just never used to be so hard nor a question of if I could physically handle any job. I'm losing control over ME.
Trying very hard to see the sun today....
Lucy
