This is a big step, so no wonder it feels like one. You've spent years doing everything you could not to have to do this. I don't think I'd be any happier about it.
I have a friend who'se been on Oxycontin for years. She lives her life fully, drives, works, it has never affected her ability to think clearly. For some people, it is extremely beneficial. This article from
WebMD is very good, by the way. At least, I like the clarity of it.
Ultimately, only you can make this decision. You're doing the best thing you could. Asking questions. I have no doubt you will make the right decision for you and your quality of life.
Warm hugs,
