I'm not a religious person. I was raised Catholic but haven't practiced in a very long time...

My mom sends little prayers up there now and then when we need help and a push in the right direction.

I usually don't. But since I've been in a HORRIBLE flare up for 8 days now, I've been praying just to make my pain go away...or at least let up some...but does it make me a bad person if I only pray when I need something? Does it even work that way?

I've been in so much pain, I was bawling in the shower today. For the past 4 days my mom has had to help me out of bed.
I go see my regular dr on the 6th of August and I can't get in to see my rheummy for a few reasons...one being that I haven't gotten the blood work done that she ordered (have to go to reg dr for that cuz it's cheaper) two I have no health insurance so every time I go it adds to the enormous bills I already owe everyone.

And it was 94 here today! I was so hot and miserable all I could do is cry.

pink :)))
"Give me strength, Give me courage"