thanks guys! Yes Tim I'll keep you in my prayers too. this job stuff can be so scary...catastrophic thinking just seems natural at these times but just like what was said, sometimes the old things have to make way for the new. that takes some faith and some poise. gotta wait for the opportunity and knab it when it shows itself. I believe that. so for right now...i am so looking forward to my enbrel again. gotta get thru the antibiotics I'm on and then tuesday is the day. Incidentally, the "meeting" was about the fact that the woman who has been the ceo of our hospitals in this area....resigned. oh well, hold on tight! here we goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Ames