hi
i am finding myself sat here again wondering just which way to turn next. sorry i guess this ones gonna b a bit of a vent.
i guess it all started when i found at the beginning of the wek my youngest son has chickenpox, (bless him) the poor lad is so upset and theres nothing i can seem to do to make him better, i try putting calamine on him and thats a struggle cus he says it hurts, he wont get into a bath either, he is so upset he wont even let his brother see his spots, and they do everything together. its so upsetting seein him so upset and unhappy, and the bad news is my other son has got this come.
due to this i am off work, i do not begrudge the reasons at all, my children need me, but its put an extra strain on me as this tightens the finances, especially when i need to pay back a loan for the new car.
i do understand that to some all of this is nothing, theres some a lot worse off than me, and my blessings go to those.
like that wasnt enough for me tho, i already have 1 cat (out of 6) that requires an operation (i am savin up for it, as i have been told its £160) then this week, one of my others falls ill (sorry bout this but my cats r like my babies) causing yet more expense i cant afford especially with not bein at work this week, and i have to keep my fingers crossed its not cat flu, cus 2 of my other will get it (more expense)
and.... an ex boyfriend giving me grief, as he wont let go, one of the reasons things went wrong was his lying to me, i wish this all finished there, but i am also in excrutiating pain just about everywhere again as i have picked up as virus, (well i think it is) it feels like bad flu, a cold and sneezing and now my eyes r itching, i really dont feel well at all. it just seems to me that everything happens all at once! and i'm not finding it very easy doin it all by myself!
sorry for goin on a bit, i just really needed someone to talk to.
take care
heather
