Magician, like Holly and Eloney have said.. breathe...and try and find something to think of just for now that DOES bring you joy.. or has brought you smiles and peace....I know we're far .. and I know we can't hug you or help in ways that seem to be what you need right now.. but we will always listen.. and believe it or not so many of us understand exactly where your standing!!!
I'm not too far away to call or vent to.. if you'd like I can give you my number... I can relate so much to how your feeling... honestly from the bottom of my heart I can.. I've been there, so low you look up and can't seem to see anything..
But there is light.. however small the ray seems to be right at this very moment.. there is light at the end of this tunnel..
Im going to as well include my number in PM.. for you.. to call ANYTIME.. Sometimes it just feels better to chat.. to get it off your chest just like you've done... to others who HEAR you.. truly hear you.
Please don't give up... just give us a bit of time to talk to you.. give options.. listen.. give advice.. or just a shoulder..
We're all here to help in any way we can..
Just take a moment and reflect on the people in your life who would be so very heartbroken without you here... Im sure there are so many that love you, and rely on your shoulders when they are down too? Time to call in those favors.. you need a shoulder to hold you up and a hand to hold...
Call any one of us.. and we will offer that ..
*big warm hugs*
Please just hold on for a little while longer... we'll help you in any way we can!!
Tracy

~ Hope sees the invisible, Feels the intangible, and Achieves the Impossible ~ Author Unknown

Single, working mom blessed with 6 biological children and one that just "belonged" with us!

Still struggling to be diagnosed...Dealing with a doc who just doesn't seem to understand what it's like each day!

*HUGS*