I'm sorry. I was just having a really really bad moment. I figured * it no one cares if I live or not. I am just a meal ticket for the doctors and pharmacists. And a laughing stock for the 'kids' I attend classes with.

I didn't realize how much they held me in high esteem for being the first person to ace an observational behaviour test. Then follow up with a second one. But after those two tests I began crumbling and my marks fell just about as fast as I was falling out of control.

I told them I am not as good as you all think I am. I am suffering from severe depression and unable to find my way through the dark thoughts at present. I will only disappoint you and am a bad example to follow.

well, should unpack groceries and wash dishes. gonna set the Mac to play continuously shortly as I have two course tests due on Monday. One of them is being completed 2 days ahead of time due to my having the colonoscopy Wednesday bright and early.

Instructors wanted to know if I could keep studying when I was gonna be there. Like I could when sedated. Like seriously! --> (my raised eyebrow)

- Carpal Tunnel in BOTH hands
- Depression (MDD) Major Depressive Disorder
- Pituitary Adenoma
- Scoliosis
- Spinal Arthritis with bone spurs on spine
- Multiple Scoliosis diagnosed
- Herniating spinal disc
- HLAB27+
- Final diagnosis: Mild lumbar spondylosis

Previously told Mechanical Back 'Issues'. Hate this term!