On my very best days, mentally speaking, I try to be philosophical about AS and undertake the challenge it presents with a smile on my face. There are other days where AS or not I pretty much want to behave like a storm trooper obliterating all obstacles or people in my way, I suspect AS may on occasion enhance the gusto with which I pursue that particular days obliteration.
I dislike the notion of treating AS as Karma. Seems to imply that somehow someone has earned AS or even worse. I suspect some here would find int even more objectionable a notion than I do.
In the end, I figure I am not wise enough to comprehend any of this and comprehending it and living through it are mutally exclusive exercises. Therefore, I get to the business of living through it as gracefully as possible despite the abundance of human frailty I ooze.
I think you see the people and the animals with the twinkle in their eyes when youhave the time, strength and mindset to llok for them. On days where I can get about without too muc trouble it is easier to see them and appreciate the day and the people as opportunities, On days where walking 30 yards is apt to leave me sweating as if I had just run a marathon because the struggle ot move is so hard and painful, its just not as easy to see the twinkles as you put it. Not that I shouldn't be trying to do so, and not to make an excuse, it just helps me to have an awareness tha ton my lousy days its ok to just survive and not feel obligated to make all the world think I'm just peachy keen fine.
So I do not look at this disease as an opportunity any more than any other event in my life. It merely is what is. I navigate through it with a smile on my face because that's how i prefer people to see me and be affected by me.
I give no credit to AS and dislike, for me, the inference that AS deserves any credit. Its easier to foght the enemy when you have intense dislike for that enemy.
