I don't believe in a God. My mother was Jewish and my Father is Christian so that led me to be well versed in those practices of religion. I am however of the mind that there is more to this universe than I can comprehend. However it regards nothing along the lines of a divine intervention, one that knows my thoughts, what the future holds and the likes of kharma etc.

I write this not feeling the same after a year of gabapentin and pain killers. I apologize that my ability of conveying thoughts are suffering atm.

It bothers me most when people feel that atheist are in inherently bad and without morale substance. For nothing could be further from the truth. Good people do good things and bad people do bad things.

I have dug wells and built many homes directly with my own money for people in Chili. I did this for I want peoples experience of life to be the best it can. For I believe this is all we get.

One example- When I talked to disability people in Ontario they asked me how I can be almost out of money when I made over 100k a year for 9 years. When I said that I was giving 60k of it away yearly, they said no you didn't, your tax returns showed no charity deductions. When I said I didn't give to charity I gave directly to the people, they looked stunned. I had to show them receipts for it took a while for them to see I was being truthful. I said that I had so much more of a impact doing it directly and that I could see first hand that I was making a difference. I didn't do this for a tax break or to please a God. I did it for people who needed it. I told them that when I would go to Chili and use the telescopes. I seen first hand how the people lived and I had the power to change it and I did. Now that I have a chronic Illness and have not worked in about a year I still have no regrets.

When I was in University and read "The missionary position" I found a book that had the same view of the world I had. That book made more sense than my Rabbi or a minister ever did.

As far as God goes. I have never seen someone grow back a eyeball or a limb. I have never seen nothing wrong with peoples language, color or sexual orientation. I feel women are equal in EVERY sense. Just to name a few.

I hope the future holds more science and less mysticism for all. I hope we can cure disease and extend life. I love being alive and having a chronic Illness has not and will not change that.

As far as how I got here I think- Were are all just a colorless odorless gas, that if given enough time will evolve to form complex being such as us. I just think how cool it is to be alive and how awesome the universe is. I love quantum mechanics, I never ever get bored.

I find I side with a mindset of knowledge that's based on observations made over time, not by knowledge based in thoughts of tradition.