Update... I havent been to see Larry lately, but I hear he has lost alot of weight.
Also I hear that his eyes dont even look like human eyes. I can only imagine.
He is still in ICU and not doing very well.
I fear, from what I have read, that hallucinations and very detailed dreams or nightmares are common. And that he probably isnt sleeping very much which just compounds everything.
It hit a chord with me, the testimonials from GBS patients, and doctors notes on the sleep patterns of patients. They mention seeing visions, and hallucinations as soon as they closed their eyes.
I can relate somewhat to that. I went through a period for two weeks that discribe exactly the same mental state. I think it was all due to the stress of being stalked and harrased for a long time. His is a different but he is frightened, no doubt.
I recall those days, and the hellishness of it. I was suicidal in my thinking.
Sleep deprivation for weeks as soon as I closed my eyes the visions would come, along with that my legs would kick and flail uncontrollably.
I cant volutarily make my legs move as fast as they were at that time.
I give credit to my friend. Dr. Lautzenheiser who has been my rheumatologist for 25 years. His words I can never forget, " physical pain is uncomfortable, mental pain is unbearable. There ARE medication that WIll help "
I no longer have the terrible dreams. I do have anxiety attacks that you dont notice unless I show the armpit sweat that drips off my elbows and soaks my shirt. I can handle that, but the crazy no sleep thing is far worse than any physical pain I ever had.
I am going to visit Larry today and in my prayer for him I ask that you may pray for him as well.
