Hey ya all,, it's been a while since Ive ben on but I havent been doing so well. workis getting harder nowthat they decided to down size and I lost my line lead possition and I cant really do the grunt work anymore.. recently I went to the urgent care because I woke up with severe pain in the right hip and my arms and legs have been going nimb for the last few months. Its getting harder and harder to walk around and standing causes to much pain.sitting is ok but my legs go numb in about 5 min if I recline everything is ok. I aint sure if I can work anymore since I have to be on my feet all day long mostly in one spot.. I dont know what to do.. I see my doc in apr. I have a feeling I am going to have to apply for disability and get put in a wheel chair. that is what scares me the most. I will be useless to everyone. and a burden to my family...how can cope with this???? I dont have any other skills tofall back on....I am trying to be strong about all of this and laughing it away. and trying toignore what is happening to me. but times like this when I know there is nothing I can do about it is so frustrating. my possitive attitude is almost gone and I feel like giving in to the monster. thanks ya all for listening to my rantings......oak

I am older then I look and I feel older than I am


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