Dennis,
I don't really know what to tell you except that being disabled does not mean, you are "useless to everyone. and a burden to (your) family." In my long post that I just made, I mention my bedridden grandmother. Well, it is true that she had to be cared for. But my mother and I loved her no less. And even from the bed, she was an important part of our family. At Christmas, we always opened gifts at her bedside. And she was still useful, she always had good advice to give, and she loved to talk and listen. And being a good listener is often one of the most "useful" talents you have to offer your family.
Anyway, may this little pep talk prove to be totally un-called-for, and may your AS miraculously get better. I know it is difficult, but we will always be here for you.
Johnny
