Plain old will power. Right now I could be in there snoozing but I MADE myself get up at 6:30. One little baby step at a time. Have you talked with your dr. about this? It could be that you need an anti-depressnt. I imagine if we took a poll, most of us would be on an anti-depressant.

I understand about your friends disappearing. That also happened to me in 1987 when I had to go on disabiity. People, as a whole, can't understand chronic illness. What they understand is that people get sick and then they get bettr or they die. They have no concept about what it is like to feel bad and hurt day after day.

What I chose was to not talk about my situation except where it is safe (like this forum). You soon learn who truly wants to know how you are and those with whom "How are you?" is like saying "hello". This goes for family members also. I had even had one of my children tell me I focus too much on myself and my illness (like if I don't I can't get out of bed):o) I just know she has no idea what it is like. So-o-o I just never ever mention to anyone how I feel except for 2 very dear friends.

I hope you have a glorious day today. Put on some good music. Find a good book if it is a bad day. I hope you feel good enough to get out. If I just get out for a little while every day it helps me.

Hugs from Oklahoma
Possi

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RUN WHEN YOU CAN,
WALK IF YOU HAVE TO,
CRAWL IF YOU MUST,
JUST NEVER EVER GIVE UP!



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