hi Vans, I'd have to echo Possi on the will power, i'm in pain every day, i'm so tired i feel dizzy half the time, my stomach is a mess and all i want to do is lay in bed....but i don't, i get up at 6:30 every day and commute into work, i'm too scared not to and i can't let this be all there is to my life. It is soooo hard though.

I too have lost a few friends over the last few years, or realised to my dismay that people i thought were great friends are really just ok friends and i've pulled back. Like Possi I know who I can moan too about all of this and who can't take it or can't be bothered to try and understand.

Last year it all did get on top of me however and i ended up on anti-depressants for a while, I also starting seeing a counsellor who i saw weekly for 6 months, and I let my GP sign me off work for 5 weeks - the combination of all 3 helped enormously and i would definitely recommend talking to your doctor.

You need to find something to get you out of bed if you're not able to work, i know this sounds daft but in the past when i've felt like that i've got into a TV show (i love TV) thats on in the morning and it gives me an incentive to get up and watch it....then i'm up...just something small that worked for me.

Sarah x