B'rer Lon!
Wow, you have really been going though it! I hope you can make the trip to see your mom again soon. You are certainly not alone--you and your mom are in our thoughts and prayers, and I have been through this kind of thing too many times, and understand all too well. You have already taken all the love she has invested in You, and are spending it wisely on others; there is no one prouder than your mom!
Love ya,
John