Hi badbackytoo,
I'm so sorry. Me too. It goes with all this I think. (I'm working on a post about inflammation, depression, and pain... give me a few). I grew up in south Florida. Loved it. But the Fall was depressing for me. I guess it felt the most season-less. And having lived all over I can tell you somehow the weather is closer in Florida, like the sky feels only 50 feet up... especially when it rains.
I'm with you on the friend thing. I feel more like a scrooge than you sound, sometimes it just seems like too much work... but that's the depression talking. If I were able to be rational about it... well ... I wouldn't be depressed. You can't just snap out of it. Go Slow. I find 'friends of circumstance' to be my speed. Like when I was in school. I take a class on Wednesdays, and I go to yoga on and off (I look for classes with old ladies, not hardbodies) and love the friends there... but I only go out for drinks with them like once a year. It's a blast, but I don't want more. Maybe a health club that's casual? A library? Book club?
US ? OK, you already have us.
Divorce knocks you on your butt, it's normal to take a long time to get back on your feet. You will. One way or the other, 5 years from now you'll have a whole new life. Could be great.
Take care of yourself, at whatever pace,
CC
