Yowza, 4 kids under 7!!!! I was busy cryin' me a river (3 kids, 11,10,8) now I'll be crying you a river!! Oh man. How are you doing it?? How long have you been on Enbrel?
I think mentally the biggest thing for me is just the question, "Why am I still on this Earth, if I can't do anything for anyone?" Sometimes I just feel like a waste of
space and oxygen. My house is getting messier and messier. The kids help me clean, but they ARE kids. And 20 minutes later its messy again anyway. They are out of
school right now for spud harvest and holy cow, its all about playin and makin messes!! (sigh)
I'm thinking about hiring a teenager to help me clean but at the same time I want my kids to pick their own crap up! I don't know what to do. My husband really likes a
clean house too. That's his "button." So besides me being sick, there's the added strain of THAT.
I am feeling much better today though, thanks to some medicine. I tried going cold turkey off the nsaids and ouch, couldn't make it.
This place I'm going is just a radon breathing treatment. No bathing,darn it. You have to go to Austria for radon baths!! Wouldn't that be cool. I laughed hard at the KA'er who said he had a hard time getting naked in front of all the Austrian Nurses etc. He said, "I'm from America and we don't do that." That would totally be me. I don't know though, I lost all my pride is so many months ago, maybe it wouldn't bother me. I could hear myself...."Just make me feel better. I'll do anything."
Thanks for the note. I think we're in the same place.
-Donette
