If the Enbrel works, you will probably find energy to cope with the job. Also, most hosptials have pretty good insurance, meaning less stress on bills.
Working 3 12s means ease in scheduling appts. 4 10s may be a little easier if your hospital permits it. (I work 2nd shift-5 8s-and it's wonderful for appts).
When I finished lab school, I was pumped for taking the exam, but lost a family member 3 weeks later and crawled into a hole. Took a bit of tough love on the part of my DH to get me out. Glad I did. Employed and love my job.
Wish I had more stamina and less pain, but maybe it will come as the Remicade kicks in.
First step, get that exam done. Every day you delay, a little more of the details can slip away.
This will only mean more stress. Don't make it harder than it needs to be. After it's done and passed, then think about your career.
By then, you may have a couple of doses of Enbrel on board and all this dread may be gone.
But finish the movie first.
