Hi Cindy,
It's heartbreaking to hear how you are suffering right now. If there is any safe place to vent and complain on this planet ~ it's right here ~ where we have at least some understanding of how rough it is to bare this all-consuming pain. How could
anyone say it's your fault for having a chronic illness? That's as dumb as it gets
!!! Ignore those voices .. they are not worthy of your precious energy.
You said that all your joints are being affected and the bloody iritis is back
... this sounds like an all out attack and I hope that you can stop for a moment and give yourself permission and the full consideration of looking after yourself first. When I read your words, I see so much devotion to everyone else... and I wonder if you even realise how selfless you are? I admire your determination to make it thru this Enbrel trial,... I really do ... I'm sure you're unaccustomed to letting anyone down, but if there was ever a valid reason to bail Cindy... I suspect your case is one.
I sure hope you get over this flu quickly... and can more fully enjoy the fun distraction of your son's upcoming wedding!
Take good care of yourself!
Hugs,
mig
