Hi Sherri

Hang in there and as others have said, you must find someone to listen to you.
I can promise you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
I have been so far down, years ago, that it just couldn't get worse, but here I am alive and well. I'm telling you - everything is possible. There ARE brighter days ahead.
Get your meds and find the right person to talk to.

Love
Maggie