Hopefully you are reading this again today Sherri. This thread is reminding me of when I was extremely depressed... until I hit rock bottom things did not really turn around. I was so overwhelmed and did not believe I was in control any more... did me good to be in the hospital and get on some meds to settle down.
I recall when I was finally allowed to leave the locked down area. I was able to go for a walk around the hospital block... I walked around the block and thought... this is how life should be... a casual stroll around the block. But it is not, and we can only manage so much at a time. But that walk did me a lot of good for some strange reason and I can still remember it like yesterday.
Praying you are doing better today Sherri!
Tim