I'm fine as I'll be. You know what that means.
THank you for the kind word on my response. I'm like you I don't think that I think my posts through very much. They're more like my sponteous utterance or ramblings.
Although on this issue I have very strong feelings. I didn't know how little I realized the upside of bringing new life into this world was. There is clearly no way to explain it until you're own children are born. I always thought I wanted to be a Dad and that it would be an important part of my life but when my lovely Diane was going through the hell that she did to get pregnant I didn't push too hard because part of me figured if its not meant to be then its not meant to be. Silly me. I had no idea how hard I should have been fighting for this opportunity in life.
Fear is the worst reason to make a decision. I have probably surrendered too much in my life to some fears. I'm so glad that I didn't let my fear of what my children might suffer rule my decision here.
THis does not mean that I do not fear that they may get AS one day. It does not mean that I fear that whether they get AS or not. I fear that one day my AS may make it too difficult ot meet all of my obligations as a parent. Despite all these fears, I cannot imgaine if my Jamie, Juliana or Tonimare simply never were. That notion is sadness beyond anything I could imagine now.
