Possi,
Thanks for your positive reaction to this. I will let my brother know. Since I have posted this here, I try to get aware of my thinking. It is just unbelievable how much space this illness is taking up in one's (or my) mind. When I feel hungry, I wonder what I can eat that is not starchy... When I walk around I can feel what pain and what does not... When I see my children, I hope they do not get this... When I think about our coming summer holiday, I wonder how I would cope and would I be able to walk a lot...
This illness has taken over my mind!!!! I don't like it a bit and try to focus on other things now. But I guess awareness of how many thoughts are going that way is very important to start with. We can't change anything if we are not aware of it.
I have given this illness to God once again last night... surrendered to Him.
Keep well and all of the best to you and your husband. May there be some relief for you as well.

Ronel "It's not good or bad. We can't see the big picture."