Hi Patrice,
Thank you for your post, I am very happy to know that I helped to make you feel welcome to the site. And you have become an intregal part of KA so quickly! I'm impressed. I am so sorry to hear about your friend, I have heard a lot of people say that with cancer, althought there is of course grief, that there is some relief as well because of all that person was going through. I greatly hope that is the case with you, that you do grieve, but that there is a sence of peace in your soul that she is in a better place now where pain will never again find her, in a new and perfect body.
I have allways enjoyed helping others, but have in the past many times put on a mask of happiness as to not show my depression. I think that during this hospital visit I learned something very important, to love myself. I hope that I can live without that mask from now on, gaining solice from loving and accepting myself for who I am. You are right, us humans have a long and treacherous road ahead of us, with every kind of imagionable hazard and pitfall, and there will be pain, that is inevidable. I can only thank God that I have such a gracious and caring group of friends herer at KA to travel that road with, all willing to lend a helping hand to any who has tripped or even those who cannot walk anymore. I am proud to be a part of this family.
Thank you for your kind and encouraging words. I am thankfull that I have a place to share my triumphs and defeats, pain and joy. And I am glad that I have shared this incedent with my friends.
I hope that your depression has let up. If you ever want to talk about it or anything, feel free to PM me, I love PM's and you could get some of your feelings out, or questions answered, or just a (cyber)shoulder to cry on. Like the song says, lean on me because it won't be long till I'm gonna need somebody to lean on.
Take care my friend
Daniel
Keep on keepin on Kicking some AS
