Glad you are feeling better. I've been where you are now, depression-wise, and can say positively: it will be better. Like gilth says, it's not the AS causing this sort of thinking, it's the depression. Best to get that treated as well. Likely, when the AS is better, the depression will lift.
'Taking the easy way out' is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Trite, yes, but true.
Be well. (
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