Hi Dan,
It sounds like you are having a rough time right now. I know you have spoken before of having some pain free days and being able to exercise etc., and I can't recall at the moment if you were given an AS diagnosis yet... but I think it is a real mistake to assume that things will not improve or that you and your rheumatologist won't be able to find a way to treat your condition effectively.
Right now, it sounds like depression is the problem that is the greatest concern to your health, far more so than AS.
As wonderful as the support at KA is, I encourage you to seek out professional care for help in treating your symptoms of depression. You should not have to feel this way and things can get better.
Take good care,
mig
