Sorry I must have been typing my last post when you were and I didn't see yours. I love how you put it. I do believe we do ourselves a disservice by pushing hard when we can. I too wish I could wake up and the imaginary disease be gone.

Had a very good app with the pain clinic today. Has given me some extra tools to help think differently and cope better with others.
Sorry to hear about your flare. They suck big time. Fortunately I haven't had a major flare for some time now (touch wood).
Hope you are feeling better.