Hello Aussie girl...Totally get it!...I think when your are in that much pain...it's just too much effort to be positive. I get exactly the same way!...Hope you get some relief soon!!...Hopefully your Rheumi will call you back with a plan....Have u already tried biologics?.....
Very gentle HUG to you.
Laurel
Diagnosed with AS in 2007 Hx of episodic back pain since I was 13.
Fibromyalgia Diagnosed Feb. 2013
methotrexate and Enbrel
Started LSD Feb 2012
Vit B,C,D, fish oil, folic acid, 5HTP, Gabba,Magnessium.
I am so much more then my symptoms:)
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