Please feel free to skip over this rant because that is what it is. I don't know if it is just from the pain or it could be also a combination of crap I have had to deal with in the medical profession.
I don't know but I am so negative and very angry/aggressive.
I am not normally like this.
Does anyone else find they get like this when in a bad flare?
I really think I need to get treatment for this pain but I have lost all faith in doctors and the medical industry. I am worried that if I seek treatment all that will happen is I will have many hours of waiting having to sit in a chair (I can only sit for a few minutes) therefore my pain and stiffness will only be worse. Then I will likely be given a shot of morphine and sent on my way only to be in a worse position when the medication wears off.
This negativity is almost as bad as the pain. Grrr I hate being so wound up like this.
I tried to reply before but am having problems posting, seems to only work if I "quote" your post....
You are so not alone Aussiegirl, I feel exactly the same. I swear the seats in the waiting room of the pain clinic and rheumy I go to are the most uncomfy seats EVER!! I usually end up just pacing round the waiting room - I've given up caring what people think. I get woken by the pain in the early hours, so I'm tired, then I eat rubbish to keep me awake then feel guilty for eating rubbish that I know isn't helping my body, then I get cranky at myself and then p*ssed off at the whole world!! I think it's a "normal" part of chronic pain but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with!
Sending you hugs!
