Yea...sure not what you want to hear..I know this might sound mean, and please don't take it this way because you know I love you girl, but you know how some people can just handle things better with grace..that is you! You have been given so much with this stinkin illness or disease and like you said ALL OF THIS..the hurricanes all of it, and although we have never met (one day we will) I can just always sense a calm about you..you just know how to keep it together, maybe not on the inside but on the outside.
I am not trying to minimize in the least what is happening, it is atrocious and I can't imagine being in the middle of something like this, I love the ocean, always have wanted to live by it, would be there every day with my kids, I can't imagine being told I couldn't go or watching dead fish wash up or seeing birds and gulls struggling to survive,,,hey I watched that Dawn commercial me and the kids would be loading them all up trying to find new homes for them.
I deal with alot too and I do my best to keep it together, being a Mom to 4 and a Nana to almost 5 as the matriarch of the family (and I know that you know) you have to be..your kids require it, the grands demand it. I know at times I falter and with my depression there are alot of days I fail, I will pray to God and tell him I just can;t take it or do it anymore..seems like when that happens God will send something, even if only our 12 year old son comes and lays with me for just a brief minute and tells me I am the best Mom in the whole world...makes me know it is all worth while and that I do have a place here as broken and fragile as I am I am still needed.
You know if you need anything from us (our family) all you have to do is ask..anything!
You are stronger than you think, you have a heart of gold and you are a dear, dear friend to many people on here..love ya girl dont know how much clearer I can get. you are an inspiration and a hero in my book.
I think that about alot of people here but I try not to tel too many too fast because it always seems to give them the big head..lol JK
Like right now I am not in a good place, not going to load you with the details as so not importent to what is going on with you but in the past I have had jaw inflammation and let me tell you for those who have suffered that it is hard to eat, talk and it feels like a constant migraine, the only thing keeping me together at this point is huge doses of pain killers and steroids. I would go for some jaw shots but with our changing insurance and the good ol 5000 deductible im kind of screwed right now..so if you get a chance please pray for me I need all the strength I can muster right now.
Love ya lots girl, please keep us updated..I so want to know that someday me and the fam can come ride in that wonderful shrimp boat (kids have been watching deadliest catch..lol)and just visit with a dear, dear friend.
Hugs,
Lisa
