Dan-
I've been out of the loop as to what you've been going through....but wow, I can do nothing but praise your actions....that was a bold and brave move. I'd like to think I could do the same thing, but who knows. That took major strength of character. You felt your back against the wall and you chose to live. Maybe those you knew who didn't fare as well helped you make your decision. I guess we have to remember that if we lose faith in everything outside ourselves, we still have ourselves to believe in. And that's what you did when you hit the bottom, you still believed in yourself....I was listening to the U2 song today, "Stuck in a moment you can't get out of" off their latest album...Bono sings at the end, "it's just a moment, this time will pass", and it was what he wished to tell the singer from INXS after hearing of his suicide. He could not escape his moment, but you did. Maybe you needed to be in the hospital to help the other people. I remember in junior high, I was really depressed over life (after effects of folks divorce), my folks caught me smoking pot and turned me in to the school, who made me see the school therapist. He saw something in me, and convinced me to be a peer counselor. In 9th grade I ran sessions with another guy for 7th and 8th graders, and met a suicidal kid who I was able to help out....you never know when your personal pain and anguish can become an inspirational teaching tool to help another in need, and that seems to have happened in your case. I applaud your courage, keep it coming, I know you can only benefit from your decision.
Peace
Linc
Linc O'Brien
