Michelle,
Hey, great one! Have you lost your accent?
I am longing to hear that again? Come on girl, you can do this.

Suffering is a lonely business:
I think to my self.. why me
I have wondered why not some jerk that is of no darn good..... I think this is my best pastoral thought...
Where is God when I am in pain?... Why does He not do something? ...it seems as though in His good time and in His plan for us, eternity is well worth all the effort to be righteous, and in the blink of an eye, we will be as what He wants us to be. So in this painful, ugly time, draw near to God, He is waiting and He will draw near to You.
Michelle, at time when my prayers are but a whisper, due to pain and frustration; But He does not have a hearing problem; it is just that His answers come to us indifferent ways. think of the pulsing of the ocean, every few seconds and of the waves. God is always there, evenif I do not witness to See him! When I tell him that I am about out of steam, I sometimes think of His power coming back like the beautiful ocean beach.

We love ya girl, get well soon. Right now, in your need of answered prayer; the full message of the Good News, brings the promise of a relationship with our Creator, not just a religion!
I have held on to the this verse for over 50 years....

Phil 3:20...who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.

All of us, wether bent by AS, or cancer or soemthign else, can have this promise of a new body! Yea!!!

Ma-an-atha Yeshuah