Dear Icky..
I will add my voice to the many others here ... as far as crying when faced with describing the undescribable to a physician...consider it the very necessary release for a built up combination of stress and fatigue mixed with the ever wearing down process of dealing with not only constant pain, but the sudden onset of newer severe pain. Verbalizing that is overwhelming. Embarrassing? Yes... to the adult who has spent a lifetime struggling to maintain control over a disease that promises absolute advancement. I look at it this way... the forced emotion release allows your physician to see the frustration and fears over new increased pain and how it is wearing you down ... it's important for the physician to understand this completely... your brain was just doing the right thing despite you thinking you should remain in control.
I hope your pain eases as I know you need respite from it. Thank you for sharing this ...it shows your comfort with the friends at KickAS. Way to go!
Warmest Regards,
Joan
I'll stop fighting when pigs fly!
