You're right, Sue. It can be enough sometimes. I told Mum this morning how awkward it felt. She felt the same thing and figures that it's probably normal given the circumstances.
I was so sad last night. My sweetie feared I was blaming myself somehow and had a long talk with me to give me perspective. I don't blame myself. I have no control over this and while our childhood has created some issues with my sister, I also know that this is not what put her where she is today (physically and emotionally, I mean). It all just makes me so damned sad. He reminded me that she's alive and suggested I focus on that when things get bad. This is a chance for a new beginning in her life, in our relationship. He's right. This morning it's easier. We'll see what tonight brings.
Warm hugs,
