Johnny, I don't really know you but I can begin to relate to your situation. I too was in a similar situation in 1994. I had to quit work because of AS, I had been divorced for 10 years and was very discouraged about any romance due to not only my disease but just the way my life had been going in general. I was a very angry person. I use to joke, saying the only way I would ever marry again is if the woman was a Christian with kids. I didn't like Christians or women with kids. I only cared about me and what my needs were. Little did I know what my future had in store for me. I had tried everything I could think of, alcohol, drugs, crime, you name it. Nothing worked. But at the prodding of my cousin Don, (who was my partner in crime), dared me to go to church. I was at the end of my rope and said what the heck. You guessed it. A half year later not only was I a Christian, but happily married to a beautiful woman with kids. Two to be exact. I 'm not trying to tell you what to do Johnny, but I just want to say, that a relationship with the Lord Jesus works. Not only do I now have the peace I never had, but I have a promise of eternal life in heaven. I have a great family, am involved in the Christian Motorcycle Asso. and am doing great with many new friends. No problem or disease is too big for Him. If you have tried everything and nothing works anymore, just give it a chance. If you have any questions, please feel free to e-mail me at windel@ecis.com. The prayer from Denise hit it on the head. Good luck in your future. You are in my prayers. Painman.
