Johnny
Sorry you're feeling this bad and I really hope it passes
I don't understand why you have had 'such a horrible record with romance' ... especially when I think of the way you come across online
But if you believe you're going to be alone and can't make it in a relationship just cos of previous bad choices just remember that "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved." (William Jennings Bryan)
Hope you're feeling better and more creative soon.
PS My dad's 82 and still going strong so I wouldn't write the ol' girl off just yet
Take care
Justine
