Hey Johnny,
I understand completely. I went through a time where my thoughts led to a "what if" scenario. This in turn left me feeling there was no hope. Its been over 20 years since my AS began and I am getting more and more "crippled" as time goes by. I met my wife Ldy (nickname in this forum) online. She knew from emails etc that I was not in the best shape and kinda gimpy. We met online in May of 1997. In June I flew from Florida to Michigan to finally meet her. In July I quit my job and moved to Michigan to be with her. Four days after getting here I was in the ICU at the University of Michigan in a drug induced coma having liver, kidney and respiratory failure (ARDS).
over 2 months had gone by while I had slept in the ICU and when I was finally awake Ldy was still there. Something that I had NEVER in my WILDEST imagination thought would happen. She gave up her entire life for me while I was struggling for mine.
I wanted to tell this to you so you can see that there are wonderful people in this world who see beyond our disabilities. The illness from 97 did not make my AS any worse but have a ton of other complications from it. She is still here, through the good and the bad. My disability has now become a blessing. If I were not disabled I would not have ever had the time to explore my creative side through my artwork. When one door is slammed in your face other doors open. Good can come from bad my friend.
Bob
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Behold the beauty of Orca Art 
